LONELINESS

 

Every time i fantasise on the future i see a vacancy, a vacancy that needs to be filled but cannot be...a vacancy that needs to be forgotten or overlooked but i can’t seem to do so. I feel lonely whenever i think or be alone. It’s not easy being lonely. You never warned me there would be this hurting inside and you just left me without a word or touch. You are gone and I just sit here and wait…for what? I always cry that you left and sometimes i ask God why? To hear you laugh, smile and those simple sounds or your smells kills....i can’t be able to feel or see those again. I can still remember your touch but i need to feel it (crying) this is not fair at all on me..life is so cruel to have taken my only younger brother, you left before I had a chance to do….so much more. I need you. Really bad now. God, so bad now. You should have told me that you will be going so soon, so that i can prepare for it but, you don’t know. Now my punishment begins………and it will never end and the memories of us playing over and over again in my mind.

I have to move on....life goes on!!!! I love you brother.

4 months of your absence in this wicked world.